Sleep!

I miss you.
I didn't get much sleep this week. About 3 hours a night. I used to be fine. I would get to school and be more awake then most people. But it's finally taking it's toll. I tried to work out yesterday, and I physically couldn't. I didn't have the strength or the energy. I was doing a wall sit and slid down to the floor. I really couldn't hold myself up. It was pathetic. And I haven't been hungry much. My friend says that coencides with my sleep. So I guess that makes sense. I just feel so weak. And I'm so anxious and depressed.
Listen, it may seem fun to have control over your life. And I think that's what I'm striving for by doing this to myself, but I'm only making myself feel worse.
I need the sleep. I need food. I need to be healthy to feel good.

And I like this guy. More than I should. He is so sweet. He thinks he loves me. I don't know about love. I don't really believe in it. But he makes me happy and I make him happy.

Urgh. I wish life wasn't so...complicated. I wish I didn't have to feel this way.