Well it's been a couple days. Not much is different. I'm struggling like crazy in math, well mostly because I don't put the effort in. But that's going to change. I'm going to actually start doing my math homework. This waiting thing honestly kills me. I was up till two last night just doing math homework. Blech.
But otherwise life is good.
I went through a struggle Friday night. I started to realize how much my life has changed. How I've lost certain people. It really upset me. I couldn't understand why they couldn't be a part of my life? Like I still talk to each and everyone of them hear and there, but we're best friends like we used to be. It kills me. Why can't things just stay the way they were. I wish things were more permanent, but then again change is what makes life exciting. So in the end, I'm fine with it. I miss them. I love them. I wish they were still here with me. I wish we were best friends again. But I whole heartedly believe everything happens for a reason. They're out of my life a particular reason, and trust God. I know he has an amazing plan for me and they're not part of it right not. Maybe eventually, maybe.In the end, I know I'll be able to look back and see why. I'll see what effect their absence has for me. But till then, I need to remain faithful.
Everything has been going really well though. I had orientation at a shelter the other day. It really pumped me up for working with the animals. I am really extremely excited to just help out and make a difference for these animals. I even cried when they started speaking and showing videos about euthansia.
Anyways, I have been happier now then I have ever been in quite a while. I'm okay with my life. I'm okay with the ways things are. I mean, they're not perfect. They never will be. If I keep trying to obtain this perfection, well...I'm always going to be let down.
In the end, you have to be happy with who you are and what you have. And I am.